My bedtime story differs every night. How about yours?

On the phone,

Girl : I miss you

Boy : I miss you too. You sound sleepy. Go to sleep.

Girl : No, i don't want to. I want to hear your voice and feel better.

Boy : Wanna hear a story?

Girl : Yes! yes! yes!

Boy : Alright, here it goes. I liked this girl. I noticed her because of her curves.

Girl : Curves?? You have got to be kidding me??

Boy : I do not kid. I am serious. I used to watch her walk up the hill with those curves swaying. 

Girl : *giggling* So did you approach her?

Boy : I never. I just watched her. But her curves were incredible. She is short and she carries around this huge knapsack that covers her curves.

Girl : Really now?

Boy : Really and then one day, i saw her walking alone down the hill. And her curves...

Girl : HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. 

Boy : Hey!! What i am telling you is true.

Girl : I know. You make me laugh at very random moments.

Boy : Haha. Hey, wanna hear another story?

Girl : *smiles* Yes, please.

Every night (nearly every night), we would call each other to tell stories of our days. Was he tired? Has he eaten? What did he do in that goat farm? When will i see him? Did he wash his clothes yet? Does he think of me during these hard times? I am not very good at long distance relationships, i will admit that and he knows it very well. I try my best because i believe in us. I won't give up on dreams, family, faith and us. 

Hey You.

Dear Lola,
Despite the time zones and my incapable way of keeping up with you, i always have you on my mind.

Wondering what you are doing.
What are you up to.
Where are you heading next.
What's next on your busy schedule.
What could you be sketching.

if you were to be in front of me, i would be investigating your thoughts.
build a microchip and plant it into your head so that i would know everything.
or build a mood ring that would alert me if you are down or happy.

*sighs*
i wish that i could be with you.
make more fond memories.
i know that i may not be the best person to turn up to because i am never there. Most of the time.
But you should know that i will always be here, on the other side of the world, wishing the best for you.

Here are some pictures from my recent trips, hope you enjoy the view and remember that when everything looks topsy turvy, there is still some pretty left in the world. You just need to know where to look at.

Lola, i wanna be a Mad Scientist and looook, i have unlocked the secrets!! 

mutated fishes

See you on the flip side,
Muffin

Wishing Silently And Secretly.

You know this. You acknowledge it. You never fail to see right through me.

Dear mother,
He wasn't really what i needed and wanted. All he ever did was made sure that i was happy. As long as there is a smile on my face, he was more than contented and happy. Although it took me long to realize and when i did, i adore him. This wasn't suppose to happen and you know that. Mom, he is more than perfect. I am not in love. I am just over the moon that god has blessed me with someone who cares and never questions cause he trusts. Oh mother, we both are feminist. We never let men near our lifes and why? Because we had seen enough how they can wreck and destroy everything we had for them in seconds. Our ability to trust had degraded over the years. We depended on each other for strength and tolerance. Mom, when i brought him to meet you. You seemed delighted and i was over the moon. Mommmmmmmmmmmmmm *batting eyelashes*, i adore him. When i wasn't looking, he was always there. When i pushed him, he pulled back and said ' I will never give up on you'.

Mommmmmmmmmmmm, i need you to know that i 'm going to love right this time. Even if things didn't work out right, at least i knew that i did everything right and it wasn't his or my fault.

When a picture tell stories and lullabies, they mean more than what meets the eye.

oh yes,
there we go,
looking through the magnified views.

oh yes,
here we go again,
identifying structures of their weird assemble of body parts.

oh yes,
oh look with excitement,
we finally found an engorged tick.

oh yes,
oh my,
Mr. Haemonchus knows how to do the peace.

oh yes,
oh noooooooooooooo,
Do we have to destroy the faeces to see the utterly small-ish eggs, Mr. Alex Hamm?

oh yes,
oh lookie a camera,
we shall camwhore till our hearts aren't filled with this boredom.

oh yes,
oh gosh,
it is time to pack our bags and leave.

Not a day goes by,
I thank god for blessing me with two misfits.

Do you?

Blink and the next second, everything you have known changes. Its that quick. I lack the capability of coping with people.

I awakened. Felt as though i got shot in the head. Its already dawn. Grabbed my towel and moved on to the toilet. Under cold water, i shivered and silently screamed. All my thoughts rushed back to home. Dragged myself back to the four walls and changed into clothes. The usual order, jeans and some random shirt stored in a dampy cupboard. Just the other day, a silver fish swam across my tees. Horrified and disgusted. URGH, i used to think silver fishes ceased to exist in books and nowhere else. Stepped out of my room. Headed to classes. By nightfall, i rediscovered my maroon bed.

That was yesterday and that routine goes on and on every single day *throws hands up*

When i walk to class,
When i have to drag myself up that hill-like road,
I wonder how do you survive these routine and planned life?
Because i can't, i need air.
I can't contain myself in this box.
Do you ever think that there could be more than this?

You sit there thinking that this is it. That is all. Nothing more. How do you do that?

Because she said it is alright

You love him

Just embrace that feeling

Don't waste it

If it doesn't end well

You won't regret it

Because you gave it a chance

You want him

Take him

He's right there 

And he wants you too

And he didn't even as for anything more than you can give

why am i so afraid?

Because you have seen enough

You have to hold that fear

Just face today

Don't worry about tomorrow too much

Girl : What foreign would you want to learn?
Boy : Spanish.
Girl : Why? My best friend mumbles all the time in that language. So what's i love you in Spanish?
Boy : Te amo
Girl : Awwwww
Boy : So what foreign language that you would like to learn?
Girl : Japanese!!
Boy : Konichiwa
Girl : I think their language is so adorable.
Boy : Arigato
Girl : What are you...
Boy : Bishi Bashi *trying to imitate the Japanese way of talking*
Girl : Oi~
Boy : Haha. So what's i love you in Japanese?
Girl : I don't know...
Boy : Its..... konichiwa!!
Girl : Are you going to konichiwa everything??
Boy : It is still Japanese
Girl : *sighs*

soul-mate.

once upon a time, there lived a girl. not just some plain jane but an exotic creature that could stop tracks of any being on earth. incredibly talented but so full of sorrow. her head spins faster than the speed of light. her souls shines as bright as any young star in the universe. bursting with incredibly loud words that would make anyone think twice before saying it. i have always been timid of her. i guess its just her. to cross her path and be kindred spirits was an absurd idea. in the end, it happened. i only can thank god because god has sent me someone who gave me hope that i will never be alone.

alia'a, you are my saviour.
do you know that?

p.s: i am glad that you are doing fine and i am always here...i mean like not really beside you..more like i will always be intact in your head and soul. I AM ALWAYS THERE JUST NOT IN PERSON.

p.s.s: mwahahah.if we were married....your husband would die of jealousy and mine would put ME in theraphy for thinking i am a lesbian.

blue skies

swimming through the currents, being left alone to fly through stormy clouds. she doesn't give up hope. she goes on searching home. home... as her thoughts were the only companion that reminded her to breathe right. struggling to find what it means to be herself. she has lost all virtues and dreams along the way. oblivion broken pieces... there is no way of picking up from where she had left. her only option is to move forward. alone and longing to know the truth. is it to late to make up for all the wrong? where were her angels? why aren't they with her? 

if she only  knew that sometimes we have to look deep down into our souls to get clarity.

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empty photo frames
empty souls with empty words
empty minds intact in an empty body

will someone save me from having to think so much..
i can't answer my own questions..
i need time and so do you

time has been speeding up.as i enter a new phase of life, i am afraid of falling and failing. exchanging of words and hands occur without feelings and emotions. could this be it? a revelation to all disagreements. i would never know. just cause i am who i am, it does not mean i can't be the alpha bitch who somewhat only knows how to get what she wants and extinguish every helping flame that lit the way to success.

escaping into the endless universe would be a much better idea.

joe and his latest hat trick.click it and enjoy.

walk down memory lane and put everything into a time capsule.

Of all the things I believe in 
I just want to get it over with 
tears from behind my eyes 
but I do not cry 
Counting the days that past me by 

I've been searching deep down in my soul 
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old 
Looks like I'm starting all over again 
The last three years were just pretend and I say 

Goodbye to you 
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew 
You were the one I love 
The one thing that I tried to hold on to 

I still get lost in your eyes 
And it seems like I can't live a day without you 
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away 
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right 

Goodbye to you 
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew 
You were the one I loved 
The one thing that I tried to hold on to 

Ohhh yeah 
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time 
I want whats yours and I want whats mine 
I want you but I'm not giving in this time 

Goodbye to you 
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew 
You were the one I loved 
The one thing that I tried to hold on to 
The one thing that I tried to hold on to 

Goodbye to you 
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew 
You were the one I loved 
The one thing that I tried to hold on to 

We the stars fall and I lie awake 
Your my shooting star 


p.s. just checked out youtube and michelle branch has a new song!!updated a week ago!!haih..its called what don't kill ya!!omg *squels like a pig*

A guilt not necessary

yesterdays are full of sorrow and pain.
shattered pieces blown into dust.
letting bygones be bygones is never easy.
saying sorry and cheating with all your might, i can see right through you.
i lied because i love you and i still do.
i cannot bare the lies...let me be alone.
a lone wolf, i shall forever be.
i will tilt my head to the moon and tear my heart out.

as long as i breathe, i won't let you pass my shield.
you mess with the wrong hurricane.

words slipping and rolling of my tongue like careless whispers

freeze time and let me enter a void of emptiness and silence just so that i can remember how to inhale and exhale accordingly.

*imagine me sitting cross legs like how those yoga lovers meditate*

today,i shall breathe right.

today,i shall refrain from getting angry.

today,i shall hug friends that i adore and love.

today,i shall send a message to my parents telling them how i much love them.

today,i shall get my information paper on grass done.

today,i shall smile even when people hurt me.

today,i shall strum my guitar the right way.

today,i shall tell my alia'a that everyone is screwed and no one is perfect.

today,i shall run and gain my speed once again.

today,i shall dance to my heart's content and demand my body to be graceful once again.

today,i shall be frugal for my future.

today,i shall open new chapters in my life and not regret my actions.

today,i shall laugh as much as i breathe.

today,i shall appreciate those that have been there for me.

today,i shall love honestly and truly.

today,i shall live my life and not for others.

today,i shall change my destiny.

today,i shall gather my strength and scream out every pain.

today,i shall not succumb to hypocrites and cynicals.

today is my starry night of hope and painted dreams.

*snaps back to reality*

lets get all these shits done.

good morning and i miss you laying on my bed.

Alia'a.Siren: lets go !!  (this is alia'a inviting me to go mandi with her. Its like we are having a LDR r'ship)

Ashreen Norman: god. 

Ashreen Norman: we are so a couple   (this is a fact that nobody can deny)

Alia'a.Siren: i know =)

Ashreen Norman: lets go

Ashreen Norman: chalo!!!!!!

Alia'a.Siren: hihi =D

Alia'a.Siren: yo

Alia'a.Siren: abis belum?   (awwww,she asked if i am done yet. so a couple)

Ashreen Norman: yeaps

Ashreen Norman: happy???? (this is me missing her and how she was after a bath)

Ashreen Norman: u always look shiny after a bath (she was shiny after a bath~i swear!!!!)

Alia'a.Siren: and...??? (this part...i think she was all 'praise me' and i shall post it on my blog)

Ashreen Norman: i dunno

Ashreen Norman: its like heavenly aura (haha.i am for real!!)

Alia'a.Siren: woohoo!!!

Alia'a.Siren: andd...??? (she likes me *shakes head*)

Ashreen Norman: u smell exceptionally good

Ashreen Norman: but i dun get why u smell better cause i use the same lotion as u (then i gt all curious)

Alia'a.Siren: hmm...

Alia'a.Siren: entah

Alia'a.Siren: maybe you just cant smell yourself?? (she tries to explain in simple english)

Ashreen Norman: maybeeeeeeeeeeeee (me being a bimbo)

Alia'a.Siren: ngahahhahaa, im gonna cut and paste this conversation and post this on the blog  (=])

Ashreen Norman: why??

Ashreen Norman: hahahahha

Ashreen Norman: omg!!its embarassing!! *being alll gedik* (me still being a bimbo)

Alia'a.Siren: -.-" (she got annoyed!!yeah me!!!)

so this conversation ended up in my blog because the inability of it to be paragraphed annoys the crap out of Siren. heh. 

waits in waves of heat

i am trying to say this straight;for once
i was sane enough to pause and breathe
outside my wild plans and after the hard rain
i turned my back on the old curse,i believed
they swung finally away from me..

bruce weigl (1949)


i am done for today. turning genetics up and down. go figure,chromosomes and sister chromatids. i will do a cross-over and undergo cytokinesis. a dslr-photographic brain would be helpful right now. but i guess those genes skipped a generation and is buried deep in those recessive heterozygous.

i am afraid that i might i have fallen head over heels for you. i think its kinda too late for me to back out and deny every time truth flies by. now i know what it feels like to have butterfly wings flap at the speed of light in the narrow intestinal tract. skies are so much more than just blue when i look up now, there are purple with shades of orange and a tinge of redness. in every nook and corner of my dreams, there you are with that smirk and smile. then i start melting like chocolates on a hot pavement at high noon. i don't think my heart skips a beat anymore. it just wants to jump out and start dancing to a happy tune. my cheeks hurt when you ignite fire in your words. i bite my lips because you are one helluva ego-testicle organism. your smooth talking ain't sweet words but its those sarcastic remarks and cynical smirks that got me. beyond those eyes that don't say much, it actually does when i daringly stare into it. our conversations are never the boring-dull-lifeless talks. its more to us exposing every truth and reality of our past, present and future. you sparked my curiosity a long time ago but now it has made me turn into a little girl who wants to believe in fairy tales. could it be you?could it be my imagination? you are so real. i am real too. do we dare to move or stay timidly together under the same moon?

Moving On.

5 minutes is all the time i need to re-invent thoughts and my wildest imaginations.

There was a girl I knew who always wanted to be the one to stand out from the crowd

Always believed that she was gonna live her dreams

That what went down was gonna come around 

For all the doubters, non-believers, the cynicals that once were dreamers

One of these days you'll open up your eyes

And you'll realize

That girl was a one time teenage drama queen

A hot, tough everyday wannabee

But she'll have changed her destiny

Now she's a somebody

That girl was a wild child dreamer but she found herself

'Cause she believes in nothin' else 

And you'll look back and you won't believe

That girl was me

Armed with an attitude that she knows how to use

She's gonna get there any way she can

Now she knows what she wants

No one is gonna stop her

Nothing's ever gonna hold her down

For all the doubters, non-believers the cynicle that once were dreamers

One of these days you'll know that you were wrong (who would've know)

Life is a work of art- you gotta paint it colorful

Can make it anything you want

Don't have to stick to any rules

You don't need a high IQ to succeed in what you do

You just gotta have no doubt just believe in yourself

Doubters, non-believers, once were dreamers

One of these days you'll open up your eyes

And you'll realize

That girl was a one time teenage drama queen

A hot, tough everyday wannabee

But she'll have changed her destiny

Now she's a somebody

That girl was a wild child dreamer but she found herself

'Cause she believes in nothin' else 

And you'll look back and you won't believe

That girl was me

somedays only songs can express how i truly feel.