drowning in silence and sadness

i find it amusing when someone calls and is able to juggle with your emotions.if its someone that loves and cares for you,you will enlightened by his/her voice.However,its the other way around when its someone 'unpleasant' calls...ngehehehe .but i am neutral *cough cough* sometimes.do you get the same symptoms as i do when the caller is your mum/bestfriend/boyfriend/or anyone that makes you happy?

1. will start screaming at the phone
2. won't stop laughing cause someone on the other side of your phone understands completely
3. the ability to share the same emotions even though we are so faraway
4. a big fat smile will be soon pasted on the face
5. everything seems much more happier cause you know someone out there loves you the way you are

tears for fears

i always hated how i look ever since i was a kid.

so till today,i think everyday "i know i am ugly and i will live with it.god gave me perfect body parts and i shall not forsake that"

ps:its not wrong for a human to break down once in a while.sometimes emotions are able to take over.

whats your ingrediant for a perfect day?

when i was in high school,my perfect day would be spending a hot afternoon with my dysfunctional family.there is sammy belly,self-proclaimed beauty syaz,turtle kz,pondan bergerak acap,silver-lala-dick shaveen and oh-so-sweet mars bars.oh oh and and and also deryckos rosales,sui khen and not to mention kah wai!!haha.but i was only with them in class during those afternoons.i wasn't able to spend much time because of unforseen circumstances.hakhakhak.

i still remember during those afternoons,the weather would be so unbearable and in front of us will be the woman of all the women teaching us ADDMATH!learning assmath,oops,i meant ADDMATH is hard when we are sweaty.soooo,we do our own entertainment.sing songs,be racist,spontaneous drama.

all that has change now.

my perfect day would be me being hardworking and not slacking.doing countless reports and not sleeping more than 5 hours a day also studying.

somehow,i don't regret not having any free time because i work better under all these WANTED stress.

so here is what i do when i am under stress:
a. KNOW that stress is a benefit
b. DO NOT COMPLAIN because complaining would not get you anywhere
c. KNOW that when we do not slack,it feels good looking at a completed work
d. THUS WE HAVE MORE FREE TIME.DOINK!!

her

this is a story of a girl meets girl.nooooo,this is not a friggin lesbian story.sheeeesh,you are so dirty-minded =)

see the picture.nooooo,it is not me.i am too short to even be compared to her.she is beautiful and long....no no no thats not the right word.....leggy!!!urgh!what does that mean...ngeh.i am just going to confuse myself.she is just PLAIN BEUATIFUL.

even if she does not realise it,she is drop dead gorgeous

she has her own opinions and thoughts

she is independent

she is sexy *but she never realises it

she has the body of an hourglass

she has the brains

she has the looks

she has her flaws but i love everything about her

because alia'a,your flaws make you human and i am glad to be the one to help you.

i'll be that shoulder you can cry on

i'll be that hand to pull you up

i'll move my mouth to motivate you

i'll open my ears to be your greatest listener

i'll open my eyes to stare at you when you feel bad about yourself

i'll make my legs run as fast as i can when you need me the most

so whats the fuss about what other people think.they are losers.they are just jealous of how beautiful you are and how smart you are.sometimes,i wish you would just open your laser-debate-mouth and tell them off.

own the moment cause you deserve it

ps:babe,i love you so.hahahaha =D

success.

i find it weird that when a real rofessional motivator talks,it never works on me.

but.....when a professor from a department gives a motivation talk,it works on me.

I AM A 10 ;)

what do you mean when you say 'i love you'

when i say i love you...it means

you are my joy

you fulfill me

you make me smile*

you bring me a certain happiness that i long

but sometimes certain events have the ability to alter our thoughts and opinions.

love is unpredictable.

at one moment,love is everything

another,love is just superficial

then,love is bullshit

in the end,we would just give up and say fuck with love*

however,i don't want to end up saying "love does not exist" In fact,it does. Remember our parents,friends and best of all...god's love for mankind.

i use to dream of romance beyond my own imagination.this is due to continuous exposure to endless disney films.its never too cheesy or even corny..its the kind of romance you expect.

its like when you kiss,there is fireworks

when you stare into each other's eyes,heartbeats get faster

when they say the perfect word,its like lights from heaven shine above us

sweet huh?

life is like a box of chocolates,huh?

i don't believe in true love or first love.i believe it when it comes and when i say "i love u"

i really mean it

i want you to trust me without me asking you directly

i don't doubt you at all

i just want to spend my life with you

now is that wrong?

i will wait if you are willing to wait.

if i ask you to trust me,will you?

sometimes a shooting star would just do when i feel troubled

and oh yes,

I AM NOT GOOD WITH WORDS.

DON'T EVER ASK ME TO BE ROMANTIC...

seriously =_="

true...and funny.

alas sometimes, abit of fantasizing won't hurt

*or you make me go crazy

*well not exactly everyone would say fuck it with love.its just us giving up on finding for love temporarily.keep in mind that it is always with us.we are humans and sometimes we are to blinded to be grateful for the things that are RIGHT in front of noses.